February 2012
3 posts
Broken.
I just want to be told that I mean something to someone. I want to be told that I am worth something. I want to be done with this year right now. I wish it was August. I know that that won’t help me. Boys may make me feel even more alone than I already do. I just hate this feeling. So empty.
Alone in a crowded room.
I just want to be held again. I’m sick of feeling unappreciated and alone. I did something stupid. Drunk kisses were given. I didn’t share any secrets this time. I feel so broken. So far down this spiral that I’m going down. So many people surround my life all the time and I still feel completely unwanted. Undesired. Unworthy. Never good enough. I just need to be held. To be told...
January 2012
1 post
Bandaids fall off eventually.
The pieces are being glued back together. Bandaids don’t stick forever. I’m getting better. It still hurts sometimes. I still miss him sometimes. But I will always feel this way because I fell in love. Hard. I know that I have an amazing God looking down at me saying “Child, I love you, far more than he ever did. Focus on me, now.” And that’s all I’m trying to...
July 2011
1 post
I wish I could feel your arms around me.
I am so completely shattered. I can’t find anything to help put the pieces back together. I don’t get why I made him run so far. I didn’t mean too.. All I want is him back. With me. I want to be able to go days without crying instead of hours. I want to be able to sleep less than 12 hours && not be tired. I want to be able to go places && not anticipate when I can...